October 23rd, 2006

~*~ nothing ~*~

Posted by paw_cxtn at 03:22 AM in Love | +say S0METHING+

October 20th, 2006

~*~ what hurts the most ~*~

letting go of a person you've just learned to love
reminiscing the good times you shared together
shielding your heart to love somebody
trying to hide what you really feel
trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes
loving a person too much
giving up someone you never thought of giving up
having the right love at the wrong time
taking the risk to fall in love again
hiding your relationship from someone else
controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend
Thinking of him/her every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he/she never even thinks a single thought of you...
letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper
holding back only to find out when it's too late,you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out
falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with
finding the perfect guy/grl with only one problem, he/she doesn't love you
helping the one you love "make ligaw or paligaw" to your friend
seeing the one you love crying for someone else
the waiting also hurts like hell
Having to hear "... I've met someone"
Agreeing to his.her wish to 'just be friends'.
asking his/her freedom back because she/he'd be happier with her/him
Asking you to 'forget that everything happened' and be 'normal' friends again.
you're only treated as a little sis/bro
sharing his/her future plans for the girl/guy with you
You stopped being friends because his gf/bf asked him to.
being denied in front of people
telling you lies where he/she'd been when actually, he/she was with a 'new friend' or an 'old flame'
he/she told you he/she'd be leaving you to return to his ex
breaking someone's heart
Fighting for that one thing that would make you happy that is,
holding on to a person who can not guarantee you his commitment unless he/she fix him/herself...then, you are left hanging for the moment...then he says, time will tell, but you still decided to hope and trust him/her...
PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying
PRETENDING to be strong.... and RECOGNIZING your weakness
Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have...
Being with someone you can't actually love...
Pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love...
Being in love...
letting go even if you really don't want to...
having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision
Seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help that person...
having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he/she doesn't treat you with the same closeness as before
having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable
admitting that you love someone despite his/her imperfections
finding out that the more you try to hate him/her, the more you end up loving him/her, perhaps even more than before
Realizing how stupid your mistakes was that led to your break-up.
the thought that this guy/grl, used to really love you and you loved him/her as well but you didn't give enough and he/she gave up on you
Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else..."
Making a promise and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered, the commitment is no longer there.
The hardest thing about love - believing it exists.
After you've been hurt, learning to forgive, learning to trust and love again.
BUT THE HARDEST THING REALLY IS LEARNING TO LOVE YOURSELF.


WE ALWAYS FORGET TO DO THIS

Currently listening to: Stars - Callalily
Currently feeling: sick
Posted by paw_cxtn at 12:30 AM in Love | 1 +they said...+

October 18th, 2006

~*~ feeling so sorry for myself ~*~

 i can't help myself to think of what just happened to me... its lyk the world has turned me down and left myself alone feeling like i d0nt belong to anyone... but i still holding him on my right hand and God at my left hand...

 i cant believe that one of the most hurful things to be heard will interpret h0w a person feel about me.... its killing me inside and im slowly dying for the love i thought that i deserved....

 i dont want any more people to experience the life that im living on... i dont want to let things happen the same as what happened to me...

 although im holding someone on my both hands, although i have to let go on my right hand, i w0nt let go my left hand c0z for me, he was the one i really needed, even without the person at my right hand.....

Currently feeling: depressed
Posted by paw_cxtn at 10:42 AM in Love | 2 +they said...+

September 13th, 2006

Waiting For You



this s0ng has touched my heart... related man sa akin o hinde per may times na parang gnito ung feelings ko.. pero just check on it nlng...


Lyrics:

金色的舞鞋伴着音乐baby 你的眼睛是一弯深邃的湖水
忽明忽灰 掩藏着不可思议的美
让我眩晕像在悬崖边 谁知一睁眼就不见

Waiting for you i'm waiting for you
Waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
Waiting for you i'm waiting for you
Waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你不断旋转 一直到黑发成了银线
Waiting for you waiting for you 直到永远
Currently feeling: confused
Posted by paw_cxtn at 08:38 AM in Love | +say S0METHING+

August 21st, 2006

Trip To Laguna

my trip to laguna has been so much fun yet so dramatic that i even don't even expect that some that i love so much for so long would come back to me....
 it all started in a trip in laguna where my barkada and i went to Majel's Debut. kasama kong mag-travel sila del, cheeno, luisa, chell, at si ralph.. and haba kc ng pila sa bus so nagkwentuhan kaming lahat khit nakapila kami! hehehe! den may bus na kaming sasakyanin! katabi ko sil ralph and del.
den in the bus, kung ano2x kalokohan na ung ginagawa namin lalo na si del! lagi nyang inaasar si ralph! hehehe but nung gus2ng alisin ni del ung "ring" ni ralph, nag-refused si ralph. so tinanong ni del kung ano bang meaning ng "ring" ni ralph... pero di sinagot ni ralph ung tanong ni del. so deadma na lang me khit alam ko ung meaning nung "ring" na un...
so nung andun na kami si Laguna, 11pm na nun so late na late na kming 7 sa debut! heheheh my g0sh! hahah! nawala pa nga kmi kc bumaba kmi sa Sta. Cruz, Laguna eh supposed to be sa Pagsanjan kami bababa! tag0ink! so yun sumakay pa kami ng jeep papunta ng pagsanjan bus terminal. dun na rin kmi sinundo ng sasakyan papunta sa debut ni majel sa 818 res0rt!

pagdating namin dun, medyo excited kc magkikita-kita na kaming mga magkakaklasmate... hehehe syemore ako pa... di ko yata gustong palagpasin yun! hahaha! so0 yun... we g0t our own ro0m for at least 10persons pero airconditioned naman so ok na rin! hahahah den start na ng debut.. tama bang i-include ako sa 18 wine??? huhuhu!! yan 2loy napainom ako ng di oras! heheheh tag0ink!
after ng program, night swimming na! yeepee!!! buti na lang di gaano ka-lamig ng tubig sa p0ol so ok naman sya.. except na lang sa mga bag0ng gising.. ayun, nilamig sila! hehehehe
after nun... ano nga bang nangyari.. ehem! (sa mga may partners!! ehem!!!)
Posted by paw_cxtn at 02:32 AM in Love | +say S0METHING+

August 6th, 2006

The Ping P0ng video!

Posted by paw_cxtn at 11:24 PM in Love | 1 +they said...+

July 30th, 2006

Posted by paw_cxtn at 10:34 PM in Love | +say S0METHING+

July 16th, 2006

What Comes First in Your Mind???


There was this guy who loved two gals at the same time but he didn't know which one he loved more. Someone taught him.

Ask yourself this question and answer it honestly :

"When you are happy, which gal would you want to share your happiness with?" The one you think of is someone you love.

Ask yourself another question and answer it honestly :

"When you are sad, which gal you want to share your burden with?" The one you think of is also someone you love.

If you think of the same gal when you are happy & sad, that's the most perfect. But if you don't think of the same gal, I would advise you to chose the one you are willing to share your sadness with.

In life, there are more sorrows than happiness. There are too many people that u meet that u can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover.

If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone.

In sadness, however, there are not many people willing to share your burden with you. If you are willing to tell someone your happiness, I am sure that person has got to be someone close & an understanding person to you.

But it shouldn't stop there. If that person only thinks of you when she is happy, but looks for someone else when she is sad, this lover is too unstable, she doesn't treat you as someone she can spend the rest of her life with.

Of course, I will be very happy if I am the first person to share her happiness. But, if she is sad, I will be too willing to stay by her side & ease her pain. Only then, will I believe that I hold a very important position in her heart.

If you are sad, who comes to your mind first?

Posted by paw_cxtn at 04:43 AM in Love | 3 +they said...+

July 13th, 2006

..L.O.V.E..

When you really love a person, you cannot find
a reason why you love him, you only know that no
matter when and where,
good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this
person be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through the
toughest problems without
asking for promises or listing criteria. In a
relationship, you have to put
in effort and give in at times, and not always be on
the receiving end.
Being away from each other is a type of test. If the
relationship isn't
strong, then you can only admit defeat..

Love is not possessive, if you like the moon, you
can't just take it down
and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still
shines upon you. In other
words, when you love a person, you can use
another method of possessing the
person. Let him become a permanent memory in
your life. If you really love
a person, you must love him for what he is. Love
him for his good points, and
the bad. You can't wish for him to become like
what you like him to be just
because you love him. If he can't change to
become what you like him to be,
you don't love him anymore.

Currently feeling: malunkyo0t!
Posted by paw_cxtn at 04:17 AM | 2 +they said...+
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