bUttErfLy kiSsEs

 i can't help myself to think of what just happened to me... its lyk the world has turned me down and left myself alone feeling like i d0nt belong to anyone... but i still holding him on my right hand and God at my left hand...

 i cant believe that one of the most hurful things to be heard will interpret h0w a person feel about me.... its killing me inside and im slowly dying for the love i thought that i deserved....

 i dont want any more people to experience the life that im living on... i dont want to let things happen the same as what happened to me...

 although im holding someone on my both hands, although i have to let go on my right hand, i w0nt let go my left hand c0z for me, he was the one i really needed, even without the person at my right hand.....

letting go of a person you've just learned to love
reminiscing the good times you shared together
shielding your heart to love somebody
trying to hide what you really feel
trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes
loving a person too much
giving up someone you never thought of giving up
having the right love at the wrong time
taking the risk to fall in love again
hiding your relationship from someone else
controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend
Thinking of him/her every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he/she never even thinks a single thought of you...
letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper
holding back only to find out when it's too late,you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out
falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with
finding the perfect guy/grl with only one problem, he/she doesn't love you
helping the one you love "make ligaw or paligaw" to your friend
seeing the one you love crying for someone else
the waiting also hurts like hell
Having to hear "... I've met someone"
Agreeing to his.her wish to 'just be friends'.
asking his/her freedom back because she/he'd be happier with her/him
Asking you to 'forget that everything happened' and be 'normal' friends again.
you're only treated as a little sis/bro
sharing his/her future plans for the girl/guy with you
You stopped being friends because his gf/bf asked him to.
being denied in front of people
telling you lies where he/she'd been when actually, he/she was with a 'new friend' or an 'old flame'
he/she told you he/she'd be leaving you to return to his ex
breaking someone's heart
Fighting for that one thing that would make you happy that is,
holding on to a person who can not guarantee you his commitment unless he/she fix him/herself...then, you are left hanging for the moment...then he says, time will tell, but you still decided to hope and trust him/her...
PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying
PRETENDING to be strong.... and RECOGNIZING your weakness
Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have...
Being with someone you can't actually love...
Pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love...
Being in love...
letting go even if you really don't want to...
having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision
Seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help that person...
having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he/she doesn't treat you with the same closeness as before
having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable
admitting that you love someone despite his/her imperfections
finding out that the more you try to hate him/her, the more you end up loving him/her, perhaps even more than before
Realizing how stupid your mistakes was that led to your break-up.
the thought that this guy/grl, used to really love you and you loved him/her as well but you didn't give enough and he/she gave up on you
Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else..."
Making a promise and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered, the commitment is no longer there.
The hardest thing about love - believing it exists.
After you've been hurt, learning to forgive, learning to trust and love again.
BUT THE HARDEST THING REALLY IS LEARNING TO LOVE YOURSELF.

WE ALWAYS FORGET TO DO THIS

Create Your Own!


triP lng!!

i don't kn0w why i am supposed to experience this kind of trouble in my heart... this was the first time that i've been hurt so much because of a person i loved so much...

 i have hundreds of heartaches that i exerienced from him but this time, it's totally different... Those words that i heard were also the words that made my heart fall into pieces but its seems lyk i still love him after all what he did....

i'll never forget those words... words that i didn't expect for me to be heard, and to be felt... and those words has put me eight-thousandth feet down below.... 

 

im s0 b0red!!

 

things are getting dumb....

 

 

 

wala na bang pwedeng gawin??????? 

How Does One Know How One Loves?

You have to begin right from the start to observe the pattern of your love. You will soon discover how you love - or whether you can love at all - or whether you are confusing love with sex and passion.

Does love hurt? Yes

Does it have to? No

I will show you how to become so in touch with your inner being that your self worth will be strengthened to the extent that no one will hurt you. Remember it is we who hurt ourselves, by allowing the other person to do it to us.

If we don't give the other person any power over us, they can't hurt us. Being in love does not mean to sacrifice your entire being.

People Who Love Non Entities - Dream People - Out of Reach People

Cyber love and cyber sex is ideal for this kind of person as they do not have to make a real contact or commitment. The moment something is not to their liking they can delete the annoyance.

People are so immature they will fall in love with a picture. This is not love. This again is an obsessive type of behavior, which can lead to stalking. It is another illness. Recognize these qualities in yourself and apply Yogic wisdom to gain a healthy love life.

Where Does Love Come From?

Love stems from the need of the self to have fulfillment through another. It is a means of allowing us to know ourselves by mirroring a like reflection in the mirror of someone else.

The real meaning behind physical, mental and spiritual love is that we should meet the people in our life that will bring us to our own ultimate fulfillment and happiness. It doesn't mean that the first person we love is the one eternal one. This simply means that life is like a great big love school, presenting certain people to us at certain times, and as we mature we find our degree of sensitivity in love changes.

It is hard to believe that a man or woman would need the experience of being in love with a person who regularly beat them up - yet that kind of love exists. It is distorted, but somewhere along the line, these people need these experiences.

They need these experiences in order to appreciate not only their own growth and development by breaking away finally, but also to appreciate the next person who may be a kinder expression of love.

Why The Need For Love?

We need to love others in order to finally learn to love ourselves.

Now if it could work the other way around, love yourself first, then I would not have to be answering these types of questions, as once someone loves themselves, they would not allow any kind of disrespect in love, and they would not give any either.

Why Do We Want To Change The Person We Love?

This is because we fall in love with an "idea" of what a person should be rather than falling in love with the person as they exist. As a result, we try to change the person to be what we think they should be. We try to change them into our idea of who and what they are rather than accepting him or her as they are.

this is once a sh0ut-out in one of my favorite website and she's expressing what a common gurl usually screams for s0mething after a failed relationship... which made her h0ld the title of "ex-girlfriend"... it is really not a big deal if they called you the "ex" of somebody... but you have to remember s0mething... it is important that you have to keep to yourself that what matters in a failed relationship is h0w you built the love you've shared till the end...

here's what she said...

"I know that it's stupid -- and silly -- to sound as if my whole life revolved around being somebody's ex-girlfriend. But I can't help it ... that title packs a pretty strong punch. I am now and official member of the "love-and-lost" club. And while it's a title I don't exactly want, I have to admit that it does say something about me.

I am an ex. I once loved someone who loved me back. But he didn't want to stay ... so I had to let him go.

I cried. A lot. I spent countless nights wondering what went wrong, muffling my sobs with my pillows so my parents wouldn't suspect that something's amiss. I'd reminisce about our happy times, then break down when I realize that he's no longer mine. I analyzed every single detail of our breakup. I wrote long e-mails to my closest friends. I talked endlessly about my situation. I spent my nights in tearful telephone conversations and my days in daydreams where we'd end up in each other's arms again.

I told myself that it was all for the better. That this is what's best for the both of us. That this is God's plan. My friends offered similar advice, none of which I hadn't heard before: "It's a sign that you're not meant for each other," "When God closes a door, He opens a window," "Someone better is coming for you," "There are so many other fish in the sea," etc..

But it didn't work. Because deep down inside of me, I still believed that he is the one, the only one. And I couldn't understand how this was all for the better when everyday seemed more torturous than the last--not being able to be with him the way I wanted to be, seeing him so unaffected, and dealing with my broken-and-smashed heart and my bruised ego.

I tried to immerse myself in other activities to forget about him. I went out a lot and tire myself to sleep. I filled my schedule with T.V. and movie marathons, and Music Manias. It worked for a while but then there were times when my mind was cleared of the busy thoughts; I tried to occupy it with those times that I would think of him. His memory would sneak up to me on tiptoes, catching me in my most vulnerable moments.

I tried to show the world that I am OK.. That I am over him.. That it was fine just being friends. I didn't go around with a big "X" on my forehead, nor did I go around with puffy eyes. I tried to live my life as I knew it before I met him. People thought that I was doing great.

They heard me laugh and they saw me smile; I seemed happy, they said; and I told myself that I am. But in the solace of my room, where I tried to organize my thoughts and sort out my feelings, I had to admit to myself that I am not truly happy. Because I am still yearning for someone, and my heart still ached for something that could not be.

It’s been 9 months now since we broke up.. Surprisingly, things have gotten better. I've changed. Somewhere along the way, I realized that he's not the only one out there for me. I also realized that there were valid, powerful reasons why we split up.. And I've become stronger, older, wiser.

I've loved and lost. I've cried tears for the things that were and that could have been. I've wrestled with intense feelings of love and hate, of jealousy, of frustration. I've simultaneously taken down and brought up my pride. I've tried to rebuild my world without the person whom it used to revolve around. I've tried to save myself from the depths of depression and self-pity, and when I couldn't do that, I turned to God for help.

I don't know exactly what I gained, or how much I lost. Maybe someday it will all be clear to me ... then again, maybe not."