bUttErfLy kiSsEs

when i was outside the LRT station
waiting for a ride home with my bro, i
noticed that there were a lot of people
waiting the same ride with us [waiting
for a jeepney].. then bigla akong
nakakita ng jeep going to antipolo so i
grab his hand, which is supposed to be
my brother's hand, but when i look at
the guy that i was holding, i freaked
out.. "HE"S NOT MY BROTHER!!!!" but
instead a cute nice guy smilling at me
and said "miss, u grabbed a wrong
hand..!" then i said "im so sorry" and
he said "it's ok, no big deal.." then he
looked at me with a smile and wave his
hand to say goodbye... aaawww...!
[and he's really hands0me!!!!]


hehehe!! share ko lang!!!

听见
Heard

你不开心的眼 仿佛将我推到悬崖边缘
Ni bu kai xin de yan Fang fu jiang wo tui dao xuan ya bian yuan

距离就算在靠近眼前 我们一样没焦点
Ju li jiu suan zai kao jin yan qian Wo men yi yang mei jiao dian

没有你的世界 就像寒冬没有春天依畏 少了你培在身边
Mei you ni de shi jie Jiu xiang han dong mei you chun tian yi wei Shao le ni pei zai sheng bian

我的四季只剩下冬天 悲伤 喜悦 回忆不断重演
Wo de si ji zhi sheng xia dong tian Bei shang Xi yue Hui yi bu duan zhong yan

静下来的世界 有我的思念 也有你的空虚无边
Jing xia lai de shi jie You wo de si nian Ye you ni de kong que wu bian

你有没有听见 寂寞的声音悄悄在蔓延
Ni you mei you ting jian Ji mo de sheng ying qiao qiao zai man yuan

它住近我们之间 守候着我和你的永远
Ta zhu jing wo men zhi jian Shou hou zhe wo he ni de yong yuan

你有没有听见 思念的呼唤传遍每条街
Ni you mei you ting jian Si nian de hu huan chuan bian mei tiao jie

就算你走的再远 累了回头我就在 你的身边
Jiu suan ni zou de zai yuan Lei le hui tou wo jiu zai Ni de sheng bian

haiiz!! nakaka-pagod pala pag maghap0n kang gising! haiizz!!

well anyway, haiiz, ang aga kow kasi sa school den una k0ng nkita ung crush k0ng mukhang korean! weetweew! lumapit pa xia to ask me kung may kasama ako, asus! nahihiya pa nga eh..! pero ahihihi ang kulet! klasmate ko sya kasi eh!

 tp0z i met s0meone, si ate jhenn (2nd c0arse taker) den un pinakilala ko sya to the rest of the gang... t0z si crush tingin ng tingin kc ngiti ako ng ngiti! [xempz ako pa! smilling face ata ito!]

 

tp0z nung recess namin pumunta kmi nila Echo, Roxanne, Medel, Cyro, Marco, and me sa lugar na puro carinderia na may videoke. nakakatawang kumain kasi maririnig mo ung mga ibang students na sintunado! bwahaha!!

 den pumunta kami sa manila plaza to play s0me stuffs pero sandali lang... per0 g0sh! huhuhu! nadulas ako!! buti na lang sinalo ako ni fafa marco! wehehehe!

 den napagawa ko na rin ung cellph0ne k0ng bulok! bwahahaa!! leche kasi di makapagsend ng txt saka di makatawag! ano ba naman un! wahaha!

den pumunta kami sa chem lab para mag-drawing ng apparatus [which i lost knina dun sa jeep!! LENCHAK!] tap0s na nga xia tp0z nawala pa! leche!

tp0z nakauwi na me ng 6pm! huhuhu yaw k0ng gabihin! nakakatak0t tp0z la pa akong masakyan! wasted talaga ako!

 

 

haay!! nakakatuwa naman ung first day k0w, computer agad ang inatupag sa school! lolz! andito kc me sa skul, tambay, kain lang... wid my new friend ~> ECHO!!

gnito kc ung nangyari....

7:30am kc ang 1st class ko so i woke up by 4:30am den umalis ako ng hauz by 5:30 den i arrived here in school by 6:30... hehehe ang aga ko noh.. den mag-isa pa lang ako sa klasrum, even in the 6th floor, mag-isa lang ako... haiiz! kakatakot! may ka-txt nga rin ako, c micheal kaso kakagising lang nya so di ko sya makausap ng matino...\

anywayz, biglang may pumasok, si ECHO! hehehe!! bsta ang weird, parang feeling mo nakilala ko na sya before! nakakatuwa sya infairness!! pareho kami ng taste lalo na sa mga fafa! hahaha!!! u g0t what i mean.. but anyway, ang saya nga ng first day, medyo nakakatakot sa una pero when u get to meet your new klasm8s, aba! di mo akalain na close na agad kau! like me and echo! hehehe!!!

 pinatikim nga nya ako ng shawarma na may cheese (s0unds weird n0h? and weird nga talaga...) but u kn0w what, i love it! kaso ayaw namin mapadalas ung bili ng shawarma na un ksi mahal saka baka mag-sawa agad kami, but itz 0k! heheheh... tpos binigyan nya ako ng wallet!! heheheh ang kyut ng wallet eh! ang bait nya sobrah!! haiiiz!!!

 after namin kumain, eto kami ngaun, sa computer, since libre lang naman sa amin ito... hehehe!!! yan anf FEU!

 o cge lapit na din kami umalis... haayz...

 got to go!

this is once a sh0ut-out in one of my favorite website and she's expressing what a common gurl usually screams for s0mething after a failed relationship... which made her h0ld the title of "ex-girlfriend"... it is really not a big deal if they called you the "ex" of somebody... but you have to remember s0mething... it is important that you have to keep to yourself that what matters in a failed relationship is h0w you built the love you've shared till the end...

here's what she said...

"I know that it's stupid -- and silly -- to sound as if my whole life revolved around being somebody's ex-girlfriend. But I can't help it ... that title packs a pretty strong punch. I am now and official member of the "love-and-lost" club. And while it's a title I don't exactly want, I have to admit that it does say something about me.

I am an ex. I once loved someone who loved me back. But he didn't want to stay ... so I had to let him go.

I cried. A lot. I spent countless nights wondering what went wrong, muffling my sobs with my pillows so my parents wouldn't suspect that something's amiss. I'd reminisce about our happy times, then break down when I realize that he's no longer mine. I analyzed every single detail of our breakup. I wrote long e-mails to my closest friends. I talked endlessly about my situation. I spent my nights in tearful telephone conversations and my days in daydreams where we'd end up in each other's arms again.

I told myself that it was all for the better. That this is what's best for the both of us. That this is God's plan. My friends offered similar advice, none of which I hadn't heard before: "It's a sign that you're not meant for each other," "When God closes a door, He opens a window," "Someone better is coming for you," "There are so many other fish in the sea," etc..

But it didn't work. Because deep down inside of me, I still believed that he is the one, the only one. And I couldn't understand how this was all for the better when everyday seemed more torturous than the last--not being able to be with him the way I wanted to be, seeing him so unaffected, and dealing with my broken-and-smashed heart and my bruised ego.

I tried to immerse myself in other activities to forget about him. I went out a lot and tire myself to sleep. I filled my schedule with T.V. and movie marathons, and Music Manias. It worked for a while but then there were times when my mind was cleared of the busy thoughts; I tried to occupy it with those times that I would think of him. His memory would sneak up to me on tiptoes, catching me in my most vulnerable moments.

I tried to show the world that I am OK.. That I am over him.. That it was fine just being friends. I didn't go around with a big "X" on my forehead, nor did I go around with puffy eyes. I tried to live my life as I knew it before I met him. People thought that I was doing great.

They heard me laugh and they saw me smile; I seemed happy, they said; and I told myself that I am. But in the solace of my room, where I tried to organize my thoughts and sort out my feelings, I had to admit to myself that I am not truly happy. Because I am still yearning for someone, and my heart still ached for something that could not be.

It’s been 9 months now since we broke up.. Surprisingly, things have gotten better. I've changed. Somewhere along the way, I realized that he's not the only one out there for me. I also realized that there were valid, powerful reasons why we split up.. And I've become stronger, older, wiser.

I've loved and lost. I've cried tears for the things that were and that could have been. I've wrestled with intense feelings of love and hate, of jealousy, of frustration. I've simultaneously taken down and brought up my pride. I've tried to rebuild my world without the person whom it used to revolve around. I've tried to save myself from the depths of depression and self-pity, and when I couldn't do that, I turned to God for help.

I don't know exactly what I gained, or how much I lost. Maybe someday it will all be clear to me ... then again, maybe not."

How Does One Know How One Loves?

You have to begin right from the start to observe the pattern of your love. You will soon discover how you love - or whether you can love at all - or whether you are confusing love with sex and passion.

Does love hurt? Yes

Does it have to? No

I will show you how to become so in touch with your inner being that your self worth will be strengthened to the extent that no one will hurt you. Remember it is we who hurt ourselves, by allowing the other person to do it to us.

If we don't give the other person any power over us, they can't hurt us. Being in love does not mean to sacrifice your entire being.

People Who Love Non Entities - Dream People - Out of Reach People

Cyber love and cyber sex is ideal for this kind of person as they do not have to make a real contact or commitment. The moment something is not to their liking they can delete the annoyance.

People are so immature they will fall in love with a picture. This is not love. This again is an obsessive type of behavior, which can lead to stalking. It is another illness. Recognize these qualities in yourself and apply Yogic wisdom to gain a healthy love life.

Where Does Love Come From?

Love stems from the need of the self to have fulfillment through another. It is a means of allowing us to know ourselves by mirroring a like reflection in the mirror of someone else.

The real meaning behind physical, mental and spiritual love is that we should meet the people in our life that will bring us to our own ultimate fulfillment and happiness. It doesn't mean that the first person we love is the one eternal one. This simply means that life is like a great big love school, presenting certain people to us at certain times, and as we mature we find our degree of sensitivity in love changes.

It is hard to believe that a man or woman would need the experience of being in love with a person who regularly beat them up - yet that kind of love exists. It is distorted, but somewhere along the line, these people need these experiences.

They need these experiences in order to appreciate not only their own growth and development by breaking away finally, but also to appreciate the next person who may be a kinder expression of love.

Why The Need For Love?

We need to love others in order to finally learn to love ourselves.

Now if it could work the other way around, love yourself first, then I would not have to be answering these types of questions, as once someone loves themselves, they would not allow any kind of disrespect in love, and they would not give any either.

Why Do We Want To Change The Person We Love?

This is because we fall in love with an "idea" of what a person should be rather than falling in love with the person as they exist. As a result, we try to change the person to be what we think they should be. We try to change them into our idea of who and what they are rather than accepting him or her as they are.

 

im s0 b0red!!

 

things are getting dumb....

 

 

 

wala na bang pwedeng gawin??????? 

i don't kn0w why i am supposed to experience this kind of trouble in my heart... this was the first time that i've been hurt so much because of a person i loved so much...

 i have hundreds of heartaches that i exerienced from him but this time, it's totally different... Those words that i heard were also the words that made my heart fall into pieces but its seems lyk i still love him after all what he did....

i'll never forget those words... words that i didn't expect for me to be heard, and to be felt... and those words has put me eight-thousandth feet down below....